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June 23, 2006 All right I know it has been months and yes I have been busy. Lots of things happening for our wedding. I had to make reservations for our wedding date at a cute little Chapel. I am making my own wedding dress. Jack thought I should buy it, but it means more to me if I make it myself. I already got the material and started working on it. I made reservations for our hotel room also known as our honeymoon suite. My maid of honor, I haven't chosen yet. But I will soon. I still have to get Jack's suit for the wedding. But so much is happening right now. The baby is fine. Everything is going good. Jack and I talked about our future. He told me all about all the girls he ever dated and screwed and I told him what I never wanted to happen in our life. I told him my expectations. He told me that he kissed his ex. I wasn't mad cause he told me the truth. I told him to never hide anything from me cause I would eventually find out. I also told him about my infatuation with his brother. He sort of wondered why I would see his brother in that way and I told him it was because of the way he had been acting and he understood he was being a dick. Since we are on Spring Break we have spent more time at Jack's parent's house. He has been helping Josh with the farm. I glance up and look at both of them work. I remember when I was a kid. I use to watch them as I wrote poetry from my tree house. Sometimes they would come and play with me. We would play hide and seek and other children games. The games we played back then was fun, but when we grew older it got more difficult. On a daily basis, Josh would tease me every day while Jack had told him to stop teasing me. I wasn't interested in either of them at the time. It got to be even more difficult when Josh started playing pranks on me. It made Jack more mad that he had done that. By our senior year the gloves were off. I pretended to like him and play nice, but on the campfire fieldtrip. I got brave enough to throw a hot piece of coal down his back. I however, was wearing gloves so I wouldn't burn myself. After that happened. Josh never teased me again. He started throwing a rumor around that I had slept with him and I wanted revenge for cheating on him. Big mistake, I had left and no one cared after that. It was mid-day and I had a muscle in my neck that started to hurt. Jack grabbed the back of my neck after he washed his hands and massaged it. Josh looked at him with envy. He wanted to be the one to do that. He wanted to take his brother's fiancee. Josh thought about it and wondered what he was thinking what made him want her so bad. What was it about Rose DeWitt Bukater? Was all he wanted just cheap meaningless sex? If so why now that his brother was on the verge of marrying her and she was with child. He looked at what his brother was doing. He was doing it all wrong. "Jack mind if I do it. You'd never known the right spot." Josh said. "Would you mind, Rose? He's right about that I have never known things like this." Jack said. "Sure, I won't mind." Rose nodded. Josh took over and massaged her neck, she began to feel better it no longer hurt. Josh had been right. He knew where it hurt. She leaned into his massage and closed her eyes. He started to actually like touching her knowing her could make her feel good. In fact, he got so into it that he started to feel his blood rush to up his thighs. His pants where starting to get tight. He let go and turned away heading up to take a shower. "What happened?" Rose asked. Jack looked at her. "Don't know. Let me find out." Jack followed Josh up the stairs taking two at a time to catch him. When he reached him he turned him around. "Josh what is it? Why did you just turn and leave?" Jack asked. "I wanted to take a shower. After all that work I am sweaty you know. Do I need your permission to shower now?" Josh acted mad. "No, its the way you left what is it, is it Rose?" Jack asked. "No, its not her, its me." Josh pointed to himself. "What do you mean?" Jack was curious to know. "I can't believe I am about to admit this to you, but for once I wished I had what you had." Josh had spilled his guts to his brother. "A family?" Jack had thought. "No Rose. I want Rose, Jack. Everything in my body wants her. I can't help it. She's never affected me like this. Josh admitted his most darkest fear falling in love with the enemy. "Maybe she has you just were never paying attention. But its too late now isn't it. She's mine now." Jack was heading downstairs when hi brother stopped him. "Perhaps. If you don't fuck it up." Josh spoke up. "What are you saying fuck it up?" Jack didn't understand. "Did you forget about Crystal?" "You fucked her right? Last time you came over and admitted it." Josh asked him. "Yeah I fucked her. She wasn't as good as Rose and I don't know why I did it." Jack for the life of him couldn't figure it out. "Your not ready for marriage and you know it, Jack. That's why you fucked Crystal." He knew he was right. "Josh that isn't true. I love Rose." The truth had hurt him more than he ever let out. "Then why go out of your way when you got her to fuck. If you can't fucken appreciate Rose. I might as well fuck her myself and do a helluva better job then you can." Josh said out of anger. "Don't you ever touch her you got that." Jack said getting angry. "Make her see your man enough to admit it Jack and not just for the baby." He patted his shoulder. "I can't leave, Rose and definitely not the baby. If I have issues I will deal with them." Jack told him. "What's the real reason, Jack? Why are you afraid of marriage?" Josh looked down at him. Jack turned around on him and went back to Rose not saying another word. Before he had went back to Rose, he had to put the tractor away. Tears streamed down his cheeks making his vision out of focus. He put the tractor in reverse instead of forward. It jerked and he fell back. The tractor came into view and it started to back up. Rose looked up and saw Jack getting out of the way, but the tractor had ran over his leg. Rose ran, before it had taken more of her fiancee, but by the time she reached it Rose was too late. Blood squirted everywhere Rose screamed. Jack was dead. |