A Barrier Broken by a Kiss
Rose leaned against the headboard, as she
looked over the window. Rain poured down, causing for the day to become more
gloomy and more stressful. Rose sighed, as she shifted into a comfortable
position, taking her diary from under the pillow. Bending her knees, Rose
placed the diary against her legs, where she took out a pen and began writing.
Here I am, sitting in the guest room of
Annies apartment, writing as the rain is pouring outside. I feel depressed,
hurt, betrayed, lonely, and most of all, love. Every time I look back to that
day that Jack had kissed another woman, I feel my heart break in two, for I
never came to think that Jack would ever hurt me so much. I had thought he
loved me. That I was the only one for him. But it seems as if I am wrong.
Seems that Jack had found another woman to share his life with.
Im not sure if our marriage is going to
last. As every day goes by, I have come to think if I should annul the
marriage. That I should end my relationship with Jack, altogether. I cant help
but feel pain enveloping my heart as I think of the day where Jack had
betrayed me. The day where he had hurt and killed me. The day where my heart
broke and shattered into millions of pieces. That, was four days ago. Four
painful days ago, without Jack. Without the man I love.
Im not really sure what I feel anymore, for
my heart still tells me that I love him. That hes the only one for me. That
nobody in the world would ever come close as to being Jack Dawson. The fine
artist that I have met on the Titanic. On the ship where our lives changed
forever. But I cant find myself to forgive him, for my mind tells me that I
should leave him, and forget him. My mind is telling me that he betrayed me,
and if I go back to him, he might betray me again, and I know I cant live
through the pain again. Not after what happened.
I think of our child. The little creature
that is growing inside of me at this very moment. I dont want my child to be
fatherless, as I have been for the past year of my life. I want my child to be
able to run into Jacks arms and call him daddy and say that he/she loves him.
But right now, it seems as if that will never happen. I just cant seem to find
myself to forgive him. To go back to him and say that everything is okay. I
feel as if I am two people, locked up in one body, and one is telling me to go
back to him, and the other is telling me to stay where I am. Which one should
My conscience is telling me to stay, and my
heart is telling me to go. To go back to him and love him again. To be able to
be in his arms and feel the warmth of his body against mine. Oh, how I long to
be in his arms and just love him. Act as if nothing has happened, but I know
that it wont happen. I just cant go and forgive him. The pain is still in my
heart and the minute that I would look at him, I know the hurt and betrayal
would return to me and cause for me to feel more pain and more loneliness.
I have been lonely for the past four days
that have passed, and I found myself wishing that I could end this all, and
the minute I try, I fall back into reality, and realize that nothing and no
one would ever erase this pain in my heart. Sometimes I wish that I have never
met himthat I never fell in love with him at all. As much as I hate to say
this, sometimes I wish I were married to Cal. I wouldve been better off with
him, if Ive known Jack would cause so much pain in my life.
Today is Annies nineteenth birthday, and
were going to have a small party, here at her apartment. One thing concerns
me. Jack might be here as well, and if he is, Im definitely going to lock
myself in the guest room and not come out until the partys over. I just cant
confront him now. Not now. Not after my heart has healed from some of the
pain. This is really killing me, knowing that I wont ever love again, or at
least I hope to never love again. Not after what Jack has done to me. To our
Well, Im going to the park, to get some
fresh air. I havent been out of this apartment for the past four days, and I
believe some outside air would so me some good. Maybe relieve some of the
stress that has been burdened on my shoulders. I just hope that Im left alone
and not bothered. One thingI hope I dont run into Jack as I go for my walk.
That would only make my day even worse and cause for my heart to ache more and
for me to feel more pain. I just hope that Im left alone.
Rose shut her diary, and set her pen on the
nightstand beside her. She hadnt even bothered signing in her last name, for
she felt she hadnt needed to. She was still upset with Jack, and putting the
name Dawson would only make her think of Jack once more and only cause for her
to cry once more. Rose had slid her diary under her pillow and got up from the
bed. She smoothed out the wrinkles on her yellow dress, which came to be a
little past her knees and was low-cut. The sleeves were short, showing off her
smooth, pale arms. Her loose curls caused for her too appear more beautiful
and young. Taking a deep breath, Rose walked out of the guest room and into
the parlor room, where she headed towards the front closet. She took out a
light jacket and an umbrella before closing the closet door. As she slipped on
the jacket, Annie emerged from the kitchen.
Where are you going? Annie asked, as she watched
Rose buttoning up the jacket.
Out, Rose said. I need some fresh air.
Okay, Annie said. But its raining out.
I know, Rose said, straightening up. Which is
why Im bringing an umbrella.
Rose, are you sure you want to go out? Annie
said. In this weather?
Annie, its just rain, Rose said. Its not like
its a thunderstorm or anything.
I know, but Im just worried about you, Rose,
Annie said. Youve been depressed for the past four days, and all Ive been
hearing was why did Jack do this to me, or I love Jack, I do, but I cant find
myself to forgive him. Rose, youre hurting yourself, without even realizing
it. Annie said, concerning shining in her eyes.
Annie, Im fine, Rose said, feeling her heart
sink as she mentioned Jack. Really. Im just going for a stroll, and Ill be
back in a little while. I promise, Rose said, closing her eyes, as she
remembered when she said those same exact words to Jack on the night where
they couldve died. Shaking her head, Rose looked up. Ill be back, okay? I-Im
going to be fine.
Annie sighed, and nodded her head. Okay, Annie
said. But be careful. I dont want anything to happen to you.
Ill be fine, Annie, really, Rose said. You worry
too much. Sometimes you sound just like Rose paused as she looked down, as she
bit her lower lip. She looked back up and straightened her back. W-well, Ill
b-be back. Happy birthday, Annie.
Thanks, Annie said, her voice soft, yet
cheerful. She watched as Rose disappeared in the hallway, pulling the door
closed behind her. Annie shook her head sadly and fell on the couch, where she
just sat and thought to herself.
Jack slouched on the sofa as he carelessly
flipped through the newspaper. Jack had been depressed for the past four days
and hadnt eaten a thing. He only drank beverages, but hadnt had the appetite
to eat food, which caused for him to grow more skinny and weak. His eyes
roamed over the words that were printed on the paper, hardly even digesting
what he was reading. Jack swung his blonde hair out of his eyes as his blue
eyes, which shone with gloominess and hurt, stared down at the paper.
Fabrizio had gotten a job as a waiter at an
Italian restaurant, with much luck. Fabrizio was also a cook at the
restaurant, for he knew some traditional Italian recipes, that his mother,
Lucia, had passed down to him when he was young. He memorized and treasured
those recipes with his heart and was happy for Americans to be able to taste
the delicious food that he had grown up with. Fabrizio also had become a
citizen. Something that meant a lot to him. He was hoping to become a citizen
of America, ever since he met Jack, and now he had reached his goal in
becoming an American citizen. To Fabrizio, life was everything he ever wanted
it to be, but to Jack, life was falling apart, and without Rose, he might
never be the same Jack that Fabrizio had once known.
Jack threw the paper on the coffee table, as he remained in the slouched
position. After a few moment, Jack repositioned himself, and sat properly, as
he gazed around the room. His portfolio lay on the coffee table, open, with
drawings exposed and scattered all over the coffee table. The drawings were of
Rose. She had never left his mind for the past four days of her absence.
Getting up from the couch, Jack went towards the front closet and took his
jacket out, and slipped it on. Not even bothering to grab an umbrella, he
pulled the door open and went out into the hallway, only to be found one foot
away from Rose.
Rose pulled the door closed behind her after
leaving Annies apartment. Rose let out a frustrated sigh, as one of her curls
landed over her eye. Setting her umbrella beside the door, Rose slipped her
hand in her jacket pocket and pulled out a ribbon. Pulling her hair into a
ponytail, Rose took the ribbon and tied it around her curls, securing them
together. When she made sure that the bow she made secured her curls, Rose
bent down and picked up the umbrella, as she was just about to head over the
staircase when she heard the door across from her open. Rose paused and
straightened her back, as her eyes became cautious and her breathing
irregular. That door that was across from her, was the door that she had
walked out from four days ago, leaving her husband behind. Rose held back her
tears, as she watched the door open slowly. Her hands began to tremble, as she
held onto the handle of the umbrella, and she felt the brisk beating of her
heart, thumping against her ribcage.
Rose watched as the door was opened fully,
revealing the person who opened it. Rose closed her eyes, as she already began
to feel tears well up. About a foot away from her, stood Jack Dawson. The man
that she had grown to loathe, but had some adoration towards, and the man that
she was married to. The man that fathered her child. The man that had betrayed
her and caused for her to feel emotionally hurt and anguished. Roses eyes
remained glued on the floor, for she was not planning on communicating with
him, for she still felt pain and betrayal lingering in her heart. She heard
him shift from one foot to another, as a sigh escaped his lips. Rose managed
to steal a few glances as she noticed how skinny Jack had gotten and how pale
he looked. Also, his eyes were red, as if he has been crying for the past
hour. Rose swallowed down a sob, and let out a shaky breath, as her trembling
hands grasped onto the handle of the umbrella she held. She felt a lump form
in her throat, and tried to swallow it away, only to find herself letting out
a sob. She brought a hand towards her face and covered her eyes as her tears
began falling down her cheeks.
Oh, Jack Rose cried, as the umbrella was dropped
to the floor. Her other hand went on her lower abdomen, as her body shook in
sobs. She felt arms go around her, and she tensed. It was as if Jacks touch
had burned her skin, instead of caressing it, as he was. IIyoupleaseI
Shhh, Jack said, holding her close. Rose shook
her head and placed her hand over his chest.
Rose gently pushed him away from her, as she
lowered her head. A sob escaped her lips, as she placed a hand over her mouth.
J-Jack, I-II c-cant forgive you, Rose cried,
tears rushing down her cheeks. I-I just cant. Not nowI still feel the painthe
Rose, Jack said, firmly, but calmly, as his blue
eyes shone with hope and hurt. Cant you just let me explain? Please? Jack
asked, looking down at her. Ive been desperate without you. I-I cant live
without you, Rose, dont you understand? As every minute goes by without you by
my side, I feel as if Im breaking apart.
How do you think I feel? Rose asked, looking up.
Do you think Im enjoying this? That Im happy to not be by your side? To not be
in your warm embrace? Rose looked down and sighed. Jack, Her eyes went back on
him. You hurt me, really bad. And it still hurts, Jack. My heart still aches,
and every time I look or think of you, I see you kissing thatthat woman!
Jack closed his eyes, as he let out a frustrated
sigh. Rose, she KISSED me! I had nothing to do with it! Jack said,
raising his voice.
Oh, really? Rose said, her voice raising as
well. So, you call kissing back a person, and pulling her close to you,
nothing? You had everything to do with it, Mr. Dawson, every little bit!
And to think that you loved me. Rose said, hugging herself as she sadly
lowered her head.
Rose, Jack said, placing his hands on her
forearms gently, and when he felt her try to wiggle out of his hold, he
tightened his grip a bit, and looked her in the eye, firmly and lovingly. I
love you. I love you more than anything in this world. I would never
betray you. Never.
Well, you did! Rose cried, her eyes shining with
hurt. You did Her eyes lowered, as she glanced down at their feet.
Jack sighed, and lifted her chin with his
finger, forcing her to look into his eyes.
Rosepleasejust let me explain. Let me tell you
what happened. Give me a chanceplease, Rose. Please. Jack begged, as his eyes
were on her.
Jack Rose said, her eyes looking around
Please, Rosejust one chance to explain. Im
begging you! Jack said, his eyes shining with plead and hope. Please
Rose sighed, and closed her eyes, to prevent
tears from flowing. As she opened her eyes, she stared into Jacks finding that
his once laughing azure colored eyes, were now shining with hurt and
forgiveness. She swallowed back as sob, and finally gave up, as she nodded her
Jack let out a sigh of relief. Thank God Jack
whispered. He cleared his throat and looked into her eyes. Rose, I
Just as he was about to explain himself, they
heard a womans voice. A voice that Jack hadnt wanted to hear. Not now. Not
while hes trying to get Roses forgiveness. He closed his eyes shut, and ran
his fingers through his hair.
Jack, The womans voice rang out in the halls, as
the clicking of her shoes were heard. Oh, Jackie boy!
Jack looked up, finding Kristen walking up
towards them, with a sly smile on her face. Her ebony colored hair flew past
her back, as her long legs led her through the hallway, and beside Jack.
Kristen, what are you doing here? Jack asked,
frustration hinted in his voice.
Oh, Jack, Jack, Jack, Kristen said, moving
closer to him. I have forgiven you for what youve done to me at the park, and
Im willing to give you another chance.
Another chance? Jack asked, growing
angry. What do you mean another chance?
What I mean is that I want you to be
mine, Kristen said, her hands going up his arm.
Rose became infuriated as she watched Kristen
touch her husband. She clenched her hands into fists, as her teeth were
clasped together angrily. She gazed into Kristens eyes as she felt her heart
Get your hands off of my husband!! Rose
Kristen looked over at Rose, her eyes shining
with revenge and anger.
Well, well, well, Kristen said, letting go of
Jack. I see youre the little wife that Jack has been talking about.
Kristen stepped closer to Rose, a mischievous smile upon her face. Hmmm, Jack
is right. You are beautiful. And very attractive Ill say.
You get away from me, or Ill Rose said, glaring
at her angrily.
Or youll what? Kristen asked. Youre gonna cry?
Kristen suddenly felt a pair of strong hands grip onto her shoulder, whirling
You leave Rose alone, Jack warned, pointing
angrily at her. She is in a fragile condition, and if you ever cause
her more hurt again, youll be sorry.
Ill be sorry, huh? Kristen said, looking down.
And just exactly what am I going to be sorry for? Kristen asked,
looking up at him.
Everything, Jack said. Youll be sorry you ever
Kristen chuckled. Sorry for ever meeting you?
Oh, my Jack, youre so funny. I love you. I love you more than Rose ever could.
Kristen said, her voice soft and flirtatious.
Jack just shook his head. Kristen, dont you
understand? Jack said, clenching his teeth. I dont love you. Never have, never
Kristen just stood up straight, her eyes shining
with anger, hurt, and revenge.
How could you do this to me? Kristen asked,
tears shining in her eyes. How could you hurt me like this? For two years, I
have loved you. For two years!
Im sorry, Kristen, Jack said, as he shook his
head sadly. I havent meant to hurt you or anything, butI love Rose. Always
will. No one will ever replace her.
Tears spilled down Kristens cheek. And just how
long have you known her? Kristen asked, looking up. Before you married?
Jack sighed. Three days, Jack said.
A chuckle escaped her lips. Three
days?! Kristen shouted. Youve only known Rose for THREE days!
Kristen Jack began.
No, Jack, Kristen said, shaking her head. Dont
say anything, Kristen looked over at Rose, then back at Jack. Seems to me that
you wont ever understand my feelings for you.
Kristen, what feelings?! Jack said, raising up
his arms, in exasperation. You never loved me the way Rose does. You never
showed me what the word love really means. All you ever did was just stick by
my side and brag to your friends that I was your boyfriend, Jack said, his
eyes shining with frustration. Kristen, thats not love. Thats just pretending
youre in love. But Im not pretending. Not with Rose. I love her to death, and
even beyond that. Please, understand that.
Rose just stood there, as she watched Jack argue
with Kristen. For the past four days, she had thought that Jack hadnt loved
her. Rose felt guilt and regret for what she had done to him. For what she had
caused him to feel. She hadnt wanted to hurt him. She never had meant to hurt
him that way. Tears began to well up in her eyes, as she brought a hand to
cover them. Her heart began to flutter within her ribcage as she felt her
heart fill with regret and guilt. A soft cry escaped her lips, as her body
shook in her heart-wrenching sobs.
Jack turned, finding Rose in tears. His heart
began to break once more as he saw Rose in this state. He hated to see her
cry. To see her in tears from a broken heart. Jack wished that Kristen never
kissed him. That he hadnt agreed to go to the park with her. Most of all, he
wished he never stepped into the bar, for he would not have bumped into
Kristen and then they would not be in this situation at this moment. He looked
over at Kristen, finding her in tears, then watched as his wife shed her
tears. Jack took a few steps closer to Rose and placed his arms around her,
pulling her close to his chest.
Shhh, Jack whispered in her ear, as his hand
gently caressed her curls. Everything will be okayI promise.
Well, Kristen said, her voice choked. I-Im gonna
go now. Seems to me that you two are busy. Kristen turned and left. She
stopped about five feet from them before turning back around. Youll be sorry,
Jack. Sure as hell, youll be sorry.
Jack had paid no attention whatsoever towards
what Kristen was saying, for he was too caught up into comforting his wife.
Hoping to win her forgiveness after what Kristen had done to both of them.
Within minutes, he heard the clicking of her shoes disappear down the stairs,
leaving him to his beloved Rose.
Im sorry, Rose, Jack whispered, hugging her
close. Im so sorry I did this to you Jack felt tears slide down his cheek as
he breathed in the scent of her gorgeous red curls.
Rose shook her head, as she pulled away. She
felt Jack cringe against her fingertips, his eyes shining with hurt and
No, Jack, Rose said, her voice soft. Tears
gently slid down her cheeks. Im the one who should be sorry. I never gave you
a chance to explain. I-I shouldve let you talk, but instead I was being so
stubborn, and Rose felt his forefinger land upon her lips.
Shhh, Jack said, a small smile coming upon his
face. His fingers went onto her cheek, and through her curls. Everything will
be all right now everything will be all right nowI promise. Jack pressed his
lips onto her curls and hugged her closer.
Rose lifted her head and glanced into his
Im so sorry Jack, Rose said, tears glittering
her emerald-blue eyes. I didnt mean to hurt you. Im so sorryplease forgive meI
love you. I love you so muchplease
Rose Jack said, as he tried to get her
Im sorryplease, JackIm sorry Rose cried.
Rose! Jack said, as he placed both hands upon
her face. His blue eyes shone with love that Rose had never seen before. It
was as if she had first met him. As if she were falling in love with him all
over again. As if fate was giving them a third chance in love. Rose, I love
you more than anything in this world. Nothing and no one will ever break us
apartI promiseyou are everything to me. Youre everything I ever wanted you to
JackI love youI love youI love you, Jack, I love
you so much, Rose said, as she clutched onto his shirt, and buried her face
into his chest. I love you
Rose, Jack said, lifting her chin with his
finger. I love you too. More than words could ever describe, and more than
life itself. I love you Rose. Nothing will ever change that. Nothing. And no
A smile came upon her face, as she pulled Jack
into a tight, loving embrace.
I love you Rose whispered as tears spilled down
Jack lifted her chin once more and gazed into
her eyes with love and passion. He leaned his face towards her, until he could
feel her warm breath against his lips. His rough fingers grazed against the
tenderness of her skin, as his fingertips brushed against her curls. Within
seconds, his lips were pressed against hers, as the two intently shared a
passionate kiss. A kiss that hadnt been shared within four days of their
separation. Within four days of hurt and agony. All the four days that had
caused them pain and regret, was now sealed with a kiss. A kiss that had
erased all the troubles and all the hurt that has been caused within their
lives. A kiss that would last forever, and beyond that. A kiss that had broken
the barrier that had been formed around Roses hearta barrier that had told her
she would never love againnever trust again, was put down by that one kiss
from her beloved Jack. Her savior, yet again.